Thankful this Thursday for:
acceptance and grace.
Great things are happened in my heart lately, along with a tug of war with God about being completely transparent. Today was one of those mornings when I let me all hang out at my writers group.
I felt naked. And ugly.
I shared my insecurities and shed a couple tears. For some reason, I still jump through imaginary hoops to please my friends. And I am tired of the work out. My mental muscles are fried. I need to break free of my desire to be seen a certain way. For some sick reason, I work extra hard to earn my writer’s group’s approval, love and acceptance.
Today I’m letting this go.
I’m giving up my perfectionist ways in order to make my life simpler. Working on a book is a lot of work. And my trying to write just so in every sentence is overwhelming. So from now on, I am free to share my “brain vomit” to my writers group. They want my words as they come out. No edits.
This is freeing and terrifying.
Writing a book bout shame is a personal and painful topic. I am going to those secret places of my heart. So naturally I want to paint a prettier picture. Not anymore. It needs to be the real, raw deal.
So this Thursday I am beyond thankful for my two friends Beth and Scoti. They showed me the unconditional love and grace and acceptance of Jesus. They saw me my weakest moments and embraced me.
Now if I can just do my part, it’ll all be good.
Thank you, Father, for courage to share my insecurities. Thank you for friends who aren’t willing to let me go.
Thank you again, Iris,Sting My Heart for hosting this week’s Thankful Thursday. I appreciate you!
Tiffany, we’ve got your back. Or, maybe I should say, we’ve got the front and back pages of whatever you write … in its unedited form. You saw my book from idea to puny little first draft all the way to galleys to on the bookstore shelves.
We’ll walk it out all the way with you!
That’s what writing buddies are for.
Hey Tiffany,
Oh, I’m sosorry things have been so difficult. This book is going to be incredible, I KNOW. And for every tear you have shed, I’m believing a woman will be set FREE!
I can hardly wait to read it. I’m going to pray HARDER for you each day.
Love you~
What a sweet example of your transparency. I love your description…”brain vomit”
I just came across you from Heather’s blog (mommymonk)
I love the picture of your friends with you-a picture of the intimate grace of Jesus to surround you when you needed it.
Kathy
I love you my friend, praying for you.
Your post is great. You have got to be a wonderful writer. I loved your words. I hope that I get a chance to read your book! Thanks for sharing. God Bless~
I love visiting here, Tiffany! (I’m new…) I know that you have Rachelle as your agent, and have a “story” about the road to being agented. I can’t seem to find it here, because the wifi at the hospital where I am with my mother keeps timing out on me….
Would you mind emailing me a link, if you’ve posted about it? I am katy@ngenius.com
Bless you!
Katy McKenna http://www.fallible.com
Great post Tiffany!
God will shelter you in His arms as you find the courage to truly share yourself in your book. Someone is waiting to read the words only you can write.
Keeping you in my prayers.
You know that the evil one is very crafty when it comes to our insecurities. The funny thing is that I just game to the same realization – God sees my heart – my motives for all the things I do. I don’t have to have the approval from others – because I am already accepted by Him – and that is enough for me 🙂 You can write the book with His strength 🙂
Thank you so much for sharing your grateful heart with us this past week.
Blessings to you and yours.