Okay, I knew I would be challenged after my last post on expectations. That’s often how life works. When life is good, the test is right around the corner. And so this morning I confess, I fell flat on my face expecting too much from my husband. I acted like a baby demanding his full attention. I judged him harshly like I do myself. My measure of grace towards him was gone. It wasn’t love. It was wrong. And I feel responsible.
There has to be a better way. And so, I pray:
Lord, deliver me from my selfish ways. Fill me up with your everlasting love. Thank you for showing me my sin. Continue to work out the rough spots in my heart. Forgive me for making mountains out of ant hills. Help me walk in humility. Teach me how to live in grace and offer it freely to others. Give me the courage to admit when I have failed you and those I love. Make me into the woman of God you want me to be. Show me how to rest in You–not in others. Be my everything. In your name I pray, Amen.
Thanks for saying this… not only do I know I’m not alone, but I am inspired to do better.
What an amazing and honest prayer! May God fill you with His grace and strength as you seek to walk in humility. May it bring you great joy to give of yourself. Know that God sees and knows and SMILES as you choose LOVE and GRACE over your expectations and “rights”. Also know that He still smiles when you make mistakes – you are His KID and HE loves you and your heart’s desire and He understands we are weak – and NEED His help 🙂
Tiff: This post shows one of the things I love most about you – your willingness to be real and to shed the “masks” we all want to wear. “God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble.” By eating “humble pie”, you prepare yourself to be the recipient of an “extra helping” of his grace.
Ha Ha, I am eating humble pie this morning, still not really speaking to JIm for not understanding and helping.
Well, thank God He gives us fresh starts! Today, I start fresh. I have been really sick all week and behind, my daily schedule of Holiday prep. I have my expectations way too high since the chilren have arrived and I want everything to be “perfect” and smooth. Wrong! I know that realistically speaking,it isn’t going to happen. Thank goodness I have a “creator” who understands how I can be. So for now….Jennifer and I are going out to breakfast, forget the dirty house with glitter and glitz all over, the cards haven’t been started and the baking dishes aren’t clean! Packages aren’t purchase,wrapped and sent, the list goes on but I am going to start fresh after breakfast and a hug to my daughter and grandson!