The fall of 2007 was slow for me. There were weeks I waited and wondered, “What next, Lord?” I felt restless and ready to go. Nothing changed. Day after day, I kept up with the laundry, daily cleaning, and made beds. I felt bored. Alone.
That was last fall.
Now I’m super busy. I have more than enough to do. I’m busy preparing a talk for two homeschool groups that I am giving tomorrow. I have a few freelance assignments I need to work on. Can’t ignore them. I’m also making a website(design your own, which isn’t all that, but it’s better than nothing.) I’m still researching for my book idea on shame, reading books for possible quotes, and reading the Word for wisdom and to hear God’s voice. Not to mention, I need actually do the chapter writing and schedule time to talk with a few friends about their shame experiences. My “to-do” list is overflowing.
And I’m a mom and wife. That needs to be priority. Lately, I feel distracted. I’m not able to give my family my full attention. I feel guilty. My listening skills are being tested. My brain is buzzing from morning until night. I even dream of things I need to jot down in the middle of the night.
So what’s worst? Busyness or boredom?
I think they both come with there own set of challenges.
I’m trying to learn to be content in all my circumstances, whether feast or famine. Thanking God each day–regardless. It’s not easy. But I’m disciplining myself to say thank you anyway.
What season are you in? How do you deal with busyness? Boredom?
Praying for God to give you strength for this race you are running my friend.
Hmmm…I’m kind of in the boredom phase right now and i guess I need to realize it’s a blessing too. There is a season for everything, right? Hope you find a little rest in there too though!
Praying for you and your speaking engagements for today (Tuesday).
I too am in a season of busyness. I can’t seem to shut my brain down at night. When I’m in this season, the first thing I do is give Him the first part of my day. I can never be so busy that I have to cut my time short with Him. The more I have on my plate… busyness… the more time I set aside for Him. It’s got to be all about Him. The Holy Spirit is sealed up inside me and I sure don’t need Him starving. So I need to be filling up with His Word, fueling He that is within me so that I know it Him that is empowering and enabling me to keep up with all the opportunities He’s provided.
The boredom phase I like to think of as a monastery (spelling?) retreat. I use those times as time of preparation. When eagles moult, they are more vulnerable to being attacked, thus those that are moulting usually stay together. They help preen one another. Then their strength is renewed and off they go, soaring through the sky!