Can I admit I’m going crazy lately? I am. It’s a good thing to squirm and wrestle life with God. Examining my heart before a holy, great and mighty God is always revealing. I see myself for who I really am. Afraid and alone, and I’m okay with that because I know I am deeply loved regardless.
For the past few weeks I’m counting the cost of my faith again. Asking myself what I am willing to risk in order to stay in step with Jesus. It feels like I’m at another turning point with God. Like He’s asking me, “Will you go for me there?” There? Really? I feel my hesitation. But I also feel myself slowly surrendering to the call to “go” for Him.
I’m working through questions like:
* Will I abandon my comfort in order to really comfort others?
* Will I share the real deal about where I’ve been in order to write a helpful book?
* Am I willing to give up something I enjoy in order to give to those with nothing? And I mean NO thing.
* Should I dare talk about issues that break my heart like sex trafficking and extreme poverty, like no clean water, no food? How do I justify my plenty before God?
* And what about talking about what childhood sexual abuse and what it does to a young girl’s heart? Will I share?
* Will I step out and look for opportunities to address teen girls and young women about body image and the lies of our culture?
* Will I say yes to God with ALL of me and count it all as loss in order to GAIN CHRIST?
The bottom line is. . .Am I ALL IN?
Lord Jesus, help me surrender all of me. I want to be all in. May the deepest desire of my heart be, not me and my comfort. May the deepest desire of my heart be to make Your name and love known wherever I go. Here I am, LORD, send me.
Please pray on this National Day of Prayer. I dream of a movement of passionate followers willing to love without limits and go where God sends them. Without excuse, with a heart ready to make a difference. Our time is short. And we can’t stop now. Like the popular saying goes, “When the going gets tough, the tough get going.”
Pray we get going!
(pic taken at Desperation retreat last summer)
I am thankful for how God is using you and I am thankful that you are answering His beckon. You are a blessing to me.
It is good to see you pondering the hard questions and finding a new path that will help others. Thanks for reminding all of us to examine our own direction.
Sweet sis, I love you. I am praying with you, and for you.
He is with you!
Oh my, did I ever need to read this. I have been asking myself some of the same questions. There are so many areas I know I should be sharing to help others, yet sometimes I don't. Thanks for the reminder. Angel
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Praying for you as God leads you deeper in His will!
Great post, Tiffany!
This was hard for me Tiffany…. I've been there… I finally surrendered my all to God… My prayers have been Lord, send me, for some time now… HE's prepping me for something BIG…. Praise Him…
Tiffany,
There is not a comment button on the above post asking for prayer. This is an easy answer…I already pray for you….and GOD knows your needs specifically. However, if you want to give me specifics..that is great, too.
Hugs,
andrea
Beautiful post! Thank you for your wise words and open heart!